enough of my nonsense lovelife (oh well! as if i have that damn so called lovelife!) haha

now let's see... so far my life is such a mess.. i have loads of work to do at the office.. so many concerns that i don't even know how to handle anymore.

here comes the good news! guess what.. an additional burden and concern for me.. (kayanin ko pa kaya?!) somebody got pregnant.. and she's been added to the list of my concerns.. just when i thought i can have my time off.. (good thing i have RH always ready to relieve all the strees of all the days work!

the past few days of my work's sched been messed up. regular visit to the OB and doing some medicine shopping (hahah let me call it that way for me not to sound so burdened.) buy some materna milk.. monitor in take of vitamins and medicines and the milk of course.. regular chek ups.. oh well.. for the baby boy, why not.. i just can imagine when he comes out.. he will be good looking.. aaarrgh but pls.. don't tell me i'll be baby sitting also? come on!!!! too much! too much! too much!

whew! is this still part of it? is it included in my work description? nah ah!!! IT'S NOT!!! but on 2nd thought? i love babies.. yet that's not enough reason to burden me with this... U KNOW!! *sigh*

can somebody tell me HOW TO GET A LIFE? anyone?

thanks for everything..

for making me realize how stupid i am to even believe all your fucking lies! (oops sorry for the word)

you are the worst asshole i've ever met! you just wait.. mind you, i don't get mad... i get EVEN!!!! really even... i'll let you see what LIES means in all the truth i will reveal to you.. i'll let you feel every tiny bit of pain i am feeling right now i swear!

i told you play with other gurls but not me.. NOT ME.. guess u didn't get it!

I'LL BE YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE.. JUST WAIT AND SEE.. SIT BACK, RELAX ENJOY UR FUCKING TIME WITH THAT BITCH!

you're in deep shit.. really deep.. it's payback time!

*my apologies for posting this.. i just needed to unload this pain i'm feeling right now. don't mind me*

mike and i had some nice chit chat some days ago.. we happen to discuss about relationships which we don't usually have time fussing about. i'm getting pissed off of my relationship again. while he on the other hand have this smooth sailing one. my problen again? the guy (just like my past relationship) have this stupid jealousy thing over mike.. oh well, when will they understand that friends are friends.. we may not be best friends but mike and i were great friends.. mike just laugh at the thought.. he told me over and over.. the guy don't know him yet that's why. and well, who knows him really? my past don't know him either.. what's to be jealous about anyway! my god! we don't hang aorund that much anymore.. aaarrgghh when this green eyed monster strikes.. i just want all relationship to end.. fair and square.. am tired but i'm hanging on.. i don't want to lose you, yet i don't want to lose my friends either.. where am i to go again?

i really don't get it!

he told me that:

i am his biggest problem.. he doesn't like what he is feeling the past few weeks. just because he can't see me and i am way too tactless.

he's becoming damn possessive already. he always wants to know where i am and hu am with (i feel like he doesn't trust me all along) he easily gets mad when i can't answer his calls right away and when my sms gets to him a bit delayed.

he is getting jealous of my friends already.. and he hate my great friend so much. he told me he doesn't want me getting along with the guy and he doesn't want me talking about him... (oh well..)

he told me he's willing to give up if im tired (wala man lng pakisuyuan ung gago!)

the past few weeks he's always hot headed.. he doesn't wnat to talk he told me..

he wants my life to revolve only on him, my work and my family.. good news.. where are my friends?!!!!!!!!!!!

our way of celebrating the occasion? cheers!!!! glass up and let the fun begin!

 oh well, me, mike, and xchan after we met up at chateau, we went straight ahed at the 24 hr store. bought some drinks and some fuds to go along with it..

our first time to tast mike's mix.. the MATRIX! aah love the effect of it.. got a nice sleep last night. peaceful sleep.. kaya ayun i over slept, hihihii late sa ofiz!

siguro 10 pm na kami natapos nun.. hay saya ng jamming.. sarap ng tagay!

happy independence guys!